Wandering among twisted streets on long dry afternoons,
in those shrieking bazaars that are a conspiracy whispered
through the broken teeth of pavements, I am made
homeless by distance. I would like the horizon to-travel
with me like in the old days when the air was cool as a
white reed and the far houses wore the deep colours of
evening. But these are neighbourhoods wide as towns,
where each house hums a different silence—like a family
in which no one has spoken to the others for days. And
the restless roads unfold without end—a tumult of
forgetting that even the clouds cannot measure.
I hoard the day’s few treasures and bring them out when
day-light dips behind the city’s far terraces. I like the wild-
eyed mask on some quiet awning, the lusty grape, the
fever in the eyes of old, diffident men who walk in those
burning mornings where cars insult stillness and
motionless trees behind public walls refuse to yield their
sweetness to the air. The cries of bare-footed flower-
sellers in the early morning, the wind sifting like tinkering
rain through the fronds of one proud palm, the names of
playing children shouted into the twilight—these ate my
flimsy refuges.
O night, O night within night, I want to peel you like the
mystical forgotten onion. These distances mock at my
gifts and I have no maps. I want sitting here, to discern
the deep movement of rivers and women’s voices made
tender by dawn, the rooftop weeping of cats in the heat
and the magical breathing of electric cables—just a few of
those palpable signs that make the city stir beneath one’s
desolate heart. But I make my home alone, in unlikely
places: the dark comforting corners of restaurants, the
window in which a leaf moves and changes, the calm bed
ever anchored to the morning’s dull and tepid light.

Anjum Hasan is the author of the novels 'Neti, Neti' and 'Lunatic in My Head' and the book of poems 'Street on the Hill'.